Sunday, January 30, 2011

Hello Friends

Hello Friends.

I noticed how lame the blogging has been lately. No one is blogging, including me, and it is really boring!! LOL!! Anyways, so things have been interesting, as far as Kathleen goes. Alexis and I are both getting really antsy about moving out. Kathleen has pushed it to the limits. We are all very certain that she has some kind of emotional problem. I.E. Bipolar Disorder/Manic Depressive or something of the sort. She has said many things to piss me off, but I’ve held my tongue for a majority of it. Rob says he’s surprised I can even talk to the woman anymore. She has accused my parents of trying to steal Alexis from her, along with me. She has said some excruciatingly rude things to me that have hurt me straight to the bone, but I just keep my mouth shut in hopes that I get out of here ASAP! I miss you guys so much. I miss having friends. The only friends I actually see on a regular basis, besides my best friend (Alexis), are Rob and Caitlyn. I miss you guys. Sometimes I wish that I would have been a better roommate. Got a job. Payed my own rent. Then, maybe, just maybe, I’d still have my own place. But, here I am, living with my wonderful mother-in-law, in a pile of debt, trying desperately to figure out how to pay for my two boys. But somehow, I still make it through. The past week has been so stressful that I have been wanting a cigarette, but I keep thinking of the kids. I keep thinking of CR’s son who, at 6 years old, snuck a cigarette from him and smoked it on the porch. I do NOT want that for my kids. I would not survive with that on my shoulders. I love them with all my heart and I don’t want anything to hurt them.

Overall, I have a good life. Very stressful at many times, but it’s those good times that make it worthwhile. I hope I start hearing from you guys more. BTW, I proposed.