So, I need some advice... :-P Or reassurance at least.

First of all, Alexis' mom has now earned the title of 'Heartless Bitch.' Just wait till you find out what she said to me! So, I'll admit, I shouldn't have been at her house while Kathleen wasn't there. That makes sense to me. So Kathleen found out and got mad. Understandable, since she already hates me. She could have told me that I can't see Alexis for two weeks and to never do it again, but no, she had to be a whole lot meaner than that. Alexis has told me plenty about her mom, and to be completely honest, it is not a good environment for the kids to be in. I could honestly call DCFS and get her kids taken away from her, but I don't want to do that to Caity and Jayde. Kathleen has be online dating, and even after promising her kids that she wouldn't take a stranger home, she did. She 'fell' for this guy from Oklahoma. He said that he was visiting his sister in Utah, and was wondering if he can meet her somewhere. Well, she invited him for dinner! After all that Alexis has been through. I could not believe how stupid and inconsiderate her mom was being. Alexis has been hurt by 'random men' that her mom has brought into the house. So, she was freaking out, and was scared for her life the entire day. She was able to get out of being there and left the house before he even got there. Luckily, the guy wasn't a duesche bag and didn't hurt anyone. But now, Kathleen was invited over for dinner and a movie at some guys house in Salt Lake. She told Alexis that she wasn't gonna go because it looked like a trap. Well, the next day, her mom changed her facebook status to, "I can't wait to go have dinner and a movie with him!" Kathleen is a cold-hearted bitch and needs to wake up out of her goddamn dream life and think about her kids.

On the other hand, she is also going to follow Alexis around wherever she goes to college. She's not going to let her go and let her spread her wings. She can't have her forever, and even if I'm not in the picture, she's going to have to let go sometime! What the hell is wrong with this woman? She has some serious bi-polar or manic depressive is issues.

Anyways, back to what she says about me/to me. The night she found out that I had been there, she called me. I saw the name on the front of my phone, "Kathleen." I was like, "Great! What does she want?" So I opened it up, and immediately started getting yelled at. She told me that I can't see Alexis for two weeks. Then, she said, "Alexis isn't going to break up with you, but I sure hope you do."
"Why?"
"Because all you do is stress her out. You are just ruining her life. Ever since you came into her life, she's been doing worse in school." Which isn't true. She was doing just as good if not better until Kathleen kicked me out. Ever since she kicked me out, Alexis has been cutting and losing all motivation to do anything.
"That's not true."
"Yes, it is. All you're going to do is knock her up and ruin her life. She's not going to have a career or anything because of you."
"Really? Did you really just say that? What, can people not change?"
"No! People don't change, Jorden. Why don't you go be a loser and ruin your life with the girl who had a miscarriage because of you!"
That's what really got to me. I could not believe my ears. We all make mistakes, and honestly, she's made a whole lot more mistakes than I could ever. But people can change. I have changed. I'm doing so much better than I have. She doesn't know me. She has no idea who I am. She's also trying to find out why I went to court so long ago. She's trying to tell Alexis before I do to try to turn her on me. This woman is fucked up. She needs a psych ward or something.
And on top of it all, she's constantly talking crap about me around Alexis. It's really hard on her. Really. How can you love someone when he's being talked about so rudely everyday? She's getting tired of it, and is out of the house in December, when she turns 18. I just can't believe that she is still with me. Through everything her mom has done and said, she still wants me. I don't know how I deserve such a wonderful girlfriend. I love her to death.

Thanks for listening. I'm sorry to burden you with my problems.

Updation!!!

So just to give you a little update on Rob and Amber, Amber's mom told the wrong person that Rob had a kid, and now he's going to jail for things that happened a long time ago. He leaves March 11, and he'll be there for 2-4 months. On top of that, they just got evicted and are packing as we speak... Seems like everyone's world is just falling apart lately. Ugh!!! Anyways, just thought I would let you know.

Guess What? Guess What? Guess What?

I GOT THE JOB!!!! I'm a sandwich maker at the Paradise Bakery & Cafe! :-P I start today at 2:45. We're doing orientation and then they'll schedule me for training! It's gonna be great! I can't wait! So, yesterday, I was looking over some old blogs, and I realized how good of friends you guys have been to me! :-P
Nessa! I was reading some of your comments and I saw that we used to say we were non-biologicals! Remember that?
Alyse, you are amazing. You were there for me in times when I needed someone.
Cam, you have made such an impact on my life. You wouldn't believe it.
Deena, even though you don't really read these, I do miss our late night talks about stupid guys!
And last, but not least,
Sam. I know, I know, Don't talk to you. Well, here I am doing it. Sam, while I was looking back on these blogs, I read about a certain night. That night, you pulled me aside, and you said that you were there for me, whenever I needed it. I do miss our friendship. I hope that one day, you can forgive me. For everything.

Anyways, Love you all!

Jordy

Well, Well, Well!!

Look who's finally posting again! :-P So my phone has been acting really really stupid. All of the sudden, I won't be able to hear a thing, but I can be heard. And earlier today, it just stopped texting. So, I went to T-Mobile, and they said that it must be the phone. I'm still under warranty, so I'm getting a new one. Anyways, that's not the point. While I was down in AF, I decided to apply at some more places. I walked into Shade, and they said they weren't hiring. So, I went down the parking lot to Paradise Bakery and Cafe. Well, guess what? I got an application and an interview right then! I'm going in for another interview tomorrow at 3, but the manager really likes me. So wish me good luck! :-) I really need this job! Anyways, that's what's new. Alexis and I are just as good as ever. :) Yay! Well, that's me!

Jay

It's Been A While...

Well, it's been quite a while since I last blogged. Sorry guys. I've had a very interesting week. To start off, my wonderful grandmother, Janice, passed away on Saturday. She died of cancer. I'm not sure what kind, and I'm not sure I want to know. I got the call last Wednesday, I think, that told me she was in the hospital. She was bleeding in her head and her leg wouldn't allow her to walk. Because of the blood in her brain, she was very in and out. One second she'd be fine, the next she wouldn't be making sense. But, they did say that we were lucky to even be able to talk to her. We went to visit her on Thursday, I believe, the days are kind of fusing together. :-P I was able to tell her that I quit smoking and she said "I knew it wouldn't last." That made me smile. After that the doctor said that she had a couple days to a couple weeks. We got her out of ICU and into a care facility in Murray. We were hoping she would last until later this week so that we could take her to my aunt and uncle's new house, but she didn't. She died early afternoon of Saturday while I was at work. The funeral is on Wednesday. I'm playing her favorite piano song. :-) She always said she wanted that song, Waterfall by Jon Schmidt, played at her funeral. So, I am. It's been hard. It's difficult to believe I won't see her at family parties, or holidays. She was the nicest lady. The most loving person I've ever met. I'm helping carry the casket.

Also, apparently, I'm not a good worker. You know, I'll admit, I could be better. And I've been trying. I really have. I've been getting better. But my manager doesn't see that. He's blinded by the smoke and the earring. Utah sucks. So Saturday was his last straw. When I found out my grandmother was gone, I was crying on and off all afternoon. It got to the point where I sat in the bathroom for a few minutes to gather myself. Well, he didn't give a flying fuck about my grandma. He pulled me aside and asked me what was wrong. I told him. He said, "I'm sorry about your grandma. This is probably bad timing, but I'm gonna have to let you go. Bring your clothes back and get your last paycheck next week." And he walked off. So, today, I went to return some of my clothes, and guess what he says. "How did you find out about your grandma? Our phones were turned off." I told him my dad called me on my cell. "Well, you shouldn't have been on your phone." I was in shock. this guy had no emotions. I just lost my grandma and he's lecturing me about my phone? He didn't even care. I blew up. I didn't care anymore. "Why does it even matter?" I said, "You already fired me! My grandma just died. Do you not have any feelings at all?" He replied with, "I'll need your last shirt before I can give you your last check." What a total heartless asshole. I was so shocked by how he reacted.

On top of everything, my girlfriend's missionary is coming home in august. I don't know what's going to happen. I can't lose her, but how can I compete with that? i just don't know what to do.

Anyways, sorry to bother you with all my problems. My next blog will be happier. I promise. :->

YYYYYYAAAAAAAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?!? I HAVE A CAR!!!! A FREAKING AWESOME ONE AT THAT!!!! It's an Isuzu Trooper. Similar to a Jeep Grand Cherokee, or a Chevrolet Blazer! IT'S HUGE!! I feel so powerful in that thing!!! And it's perfect for camping! :-P It has high and low four wheel drive and the tires are gigantic! Only problem with it, is the tires, the spark plugs and a rear light plate need to be replaced before it can pass emmisions... That is going to be insanely expensive, considering my tires are going to be at least $100 each... Oh well. That's what I get for a $1500 car. :-P I still love it though. And it's a good thing that it's a fixer upper. I've done spark plugs before, so I can do that myself. Oh! And the exhaust is very slightly leaking, so I just need to find the hole and JB weld it up!! :-P I love it so much though. It's so much fun to drive I feel like I can eat all the other cars alive! I love it so much! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)
I'll post a picture of it on here as soon as I can!!!!

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?

So, I might be getting a car today!!! :-P I can't wait. I'm at work right now, but after work, I'm going over to a dealer and my dad is going to help me. He's going to pay the down payment and then I'll just pay him back once the car is payed off. It's pretty cool. This dealership does 90 days same as cash for their used cars, so you give them the down, and then the rest you just have to give them within 90 days. This way you don't have any car payments after that! :-> It'll be great!!!
So, for those of you who care, and those who don't, here's my plan for my future!

-Go to MATC for Auto Mechanics
-Finish school in about a year
-Pay off Deena within the next 6 months
-Once I finish school in about a year and a half, after Alexis is done with one year of college... we're off to Florida!!!! :-P Can't Wait!!!

:-P
Jorden