Life comes at you fast...

Well, as most of you already know, I'm gonna be a daddy! I have quite the mixed feelings about the whole thing, as you can imagine... So many different things go through my mind. Like:
* If I had gone on a mission, where would I be?
* If I had gone to college, where would I be?
* If I had stopped being such a stupid horny bastard, where would I be?

I just never thought about the consequences of my actions until it was too late...

Don't get me wrong. I am very excited to be starting a family, but it is very overwhelming. I can't wait to see the life in my kids' eyes. Yes, that is both of them... Twins! God must be laughing at me now... Haha!

I am quite optimistic about the whole thing. To be completely honest with you, I'm just glad I'm still here, and I haven't run away from this. I feel like I am growing up really really fast. I'm gonna miss being young and only in love.... Now I'm young, in love, and a father... Wow!!!

Jobs have been a real problem for me. I had a job at Paradise Bakery, but I was only getting 15 hours a week or less so I needed something more. I found a call center job that was commission with a base pay at full time hours. I decided to take it and they ended up dropping the base pay and I wasn't making any money, so I had to quit. Now, I am unemployed, with babies on the way. You can only imagine the stress factor in this one...

Geez! Life just doesn't stop. Especially if you're stupid and push the fast-forward button.

Alexis is doing fine. She had to quit her job, but other than that, it's been a pretty normal pregnancy so far. We'll know the genders of them in November. Can't Wait!!! :-P Although, we do have names picked out. We thought that for one of the girls, we'd go for Amanda Capri Young. We haven't thought of any other girls' names... And for boys Brandon Michael Young, or Brandon and Michael Young! :-P Let me know what you think.

Otherwise, wish me luck on the job hunt!

Breaking the Silence!!!

Wow. I think this is the longest we've gone without a single blog! So, I'm going to break the silence, (hence the title!). Well, life is an interesting place. As soon as Alexis turns 18 she wants to leave her mom's house and move out with me. :-) Her mom is being totally heartless to her and she is sick of it. Maybe once she's gone, her mom will realize what she's done! I hope so.
Anyways, or anyhoo, (just for you cori), so I was going through all my stuff and getting rid of trash and things and guess what I ran into? Our awesome sticky note pile of awesome quotes!!! :-> :-> :-> I was crazy excited. So, this gives me more of a reason to blog. I'm going to post one or two of them in my blogs. So, for tonight, I thought I would do a few. We have... drum roll...

"When can't I chuck my kid?" - Sam

"You have a very fat ass. Please get out of my way!" - Nessa

"Will you stir my noodles?" - Deena

"You touch me funny!" - Cam

"I hate leftover Jamba!!!" - Me

Ahh the memories. Anyways, I'll be attaching one or two each blog. Hope to hear from you guys soon! :-) Have a good life!!

Hey friends!

Wow. It's been a long time since I've posted. Like, ridiculously!!! :-P A whole lot of shit has gone down. Let's just say that I'm growing up a whole lot faster than I ever expected to. I screwed up big time, but I'm owning up to it, and I'm going to take responsibility. Interesting, about a year ago, I probably would have bailed... :-P Anyways, how are y'all doin? I've missed the old gang. The only people I really talk to is Dee and occasionally Nessa. Hope you're all doing great. Love ya!
Jorden

D.I. (The Mormons)

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I just got on youtube today and saw our old video filmed in the apartment on crappy camera phones. It's so much fun to watch this again!!! :-P here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTVy2PLkB8I Check it out!!!

Point of View : It Matters!

You know, I could look at all the bad is happening in my life right now and get really depressed. Or, I could look at what is good in my life right now, and be happy with what I have. The bad side's list definitely out-weighs the good. But the few things that are on my good list out-weigh all the bad. So it all depends on how I decided to look at it.
First, the bad list.

Number One: My Car, or so it was.
So, I was driving with my brother-in-law, when it happened. We had a 100 lbs jack and a loose window in the back. We were coming home from picking up some tools to fix my dad's brakes. The jack had a 2 - 3 inch pole on the end that was sticking out right between our heads. We were coming through the light at Kholer's in Highland. I was going towards the canyon when the stupid little 16 year old thought she had enough time to take her left turn. Well, to be blunt, she didn't. I tried to swerve, but I turned the wrong way. I T-Boned her passengers side. No seat belt cause I'm an idiot. Now I'm going to the chiropractor twice a week to get rid of some whiplash. My entire body ached for the rest of the week. I did terrible at work, and my manager didn't care that I was hurting. And on top of it all, yes, my car is totaled. What a Bitch!!!!

Number Two: My License, or so it was.
Me, being an IDIOT, was driving on a suspended license when this beloved accident happened. What's really a bitch is, the day that my accident happened, was the last day on my suspension. How's that for karma? Such a bitch. So, I have no idea what will happen. I may not have a license for quite a while. Couldn't get any worse, right? Haha!!!

Number Three: My Money, or so I thought.
So, my parents are claiming the money I'm going to get from MY INSURANCE!!! My mom says it's because if I owed the bank, instead of them, it would be the banks money. Yes, it would, until they are payed off and the rest would be mine. They don't understand this. So when we do get that money, and I find out what is happening with my license, they are not using any of it. And if they do, there will be hell to pay.

Number Four: My Freedom, or so it was.
Well, with no license, no car, and no money... Well, you get the point.

My Good List.

Number One: ALEXIS ALEXIS ALEXIS!!!!
I don't know where I'd be without her. Honestly, I probably wouldn't be in this state. I'd be off selling drugs, ruining my life, if it wasn't for her. She's been picking me up from work. She is my girl, and always will be. :-) I love her!!!

Number Two: My Family
Even though my parents are being stupid about my money, they are helping me get to work and do what I need to. So they are good for something!!! :-P JK!

So maybe the lists are different in number, my good definitely out-weighs the bad, so why worry? I have a great life, even if it is shit right now. I have my family, my friends, and my lover. I don't think I need anything else. :-) Love you guys!!!

Point of

Well, He's Dead... And It's All My Fault

Magma died today... I know what you're thinking. "He was just a fish, Jorden." Well, yes, he was just a fish. But he was also my last connection to the apartment. I've had him since my Wal-Mart job. The last couple months of the lease. And now that he's gone, and I never see you guys, it just feels like it's all over. I know it's not. I'm sure I'll see you guys again, it just made me sad... :-P And it was all my fault. I pretty much neglected the poor thing. :-( Oh well. He's definitely okay now. :-(