You know, I've got plenty of reason to be angry. A whole lot. From a car crash, to my parents about to kick me out, I have a lot of reason to be angry. From debt to court. Blah Blah Blah! So many things have happened in the last couple weeks that I've finally said FUCK IT! I don't even care anymore. I've gotten to the point where if something bad happens, my attitude just says "Whatever." I feel like I've grown Immune to problems. Anything fired at me, I don't budge, cause I don't feel. But I do want to say one thing. Sam, if I were in Deena's position, (that is having two people owe her over 1000 dollars each) I'd do the same thing. I really don't blame her at all. I doubt you'll even read this because for some reason you've decided to never ever talk to me again. I've got more reason to hate you, Sam, and still, I text, I call you, but you never ever answer. "Whatever." I just don't care anymore.
I know this is not good. I know becoming immune can only lead to bad places, but i just don't care anymore. Not. One. Bit.
My dad found my hookah. Told me that that was the last straw. If he finds anything else, I'm out. I crashed his car coming down the canyon. Almost flipped over. I didn't flip out as much as I should have. Ask Rob.
I've lost all feelings.
And I don't care.
The only thing good, :-), is my Alexis. On the 23rd, it will be our 5 month mark. Can't wait for 6. :-> She's the only thing keeping me in Utah. Even then, if we're still together, she wants me to move to Florida with her in a year and a half. And that, I really can't wait for. Get out of Utah. Have a fresh start. Do everything that I meant to do. Get a real job. Be who I want to be, without being criticized and hurt for it. I'm sick of this place, and as soon as I pay deena off, I'm out of my parents house for good. I'll fuckin sleep on the streets if I have to. I'm Done.
Jorden stop. Stop being such a prick about life you have a shit load of problems that are entirely your fault if you don't like it fix it. stop bitching and being emo about it get the fuck over your self you self righteous emo bastard. and quit with the "i have so much more reason to hate you sam" because all ive done is sit there and tollerate you and your constant bitching and moaning about you and your shitty ass life. well congradulations you finally got me pissed off enough to respond to you. as a matter of fact this is the exact reason i refused to talk to you cause i was trying to be civil well Fuck it im done holding it in now as far as the whole deena situation goes i can blame her for it all i want and dont act like your better than me because You "dont blame her at all". because guess what your nothing but a worthless peice of shit your not even capable of keeping your parents happy enough to let you live with them. And yet you wonder why i dont like you. oh and last thing let me tell you a little secret getting out of utah and having a "fresh start isnt going to help you because the only thing thats causing the problem in your life is you. You can change your situation but unless you change your idea of "who i want to be" your gonna be a pile of shit for the rest of your life.
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Alright, Sam. Fine. I won't even try to be your friend. I'm sorry I'm so dramatic. I know, I need to just get over it... wait, wasn't that the point of the blog? I'm really trying to be a better person, and, yes, I still want to be friends with Deena. I've even visited her at work, so no, Sam, I'm not self-righteous, I just don't want to lose a good friend over money. I've missed ya Sam, but I guess that didn't mean a thing. I won't text you anymore. I'm sorry I bothered you so much.
ReplyDeletereally? ... no wait... really? both of you are fighting over this? this friendship that i remember when it started, ends this way? this argument is none of my buissiness i don't take any part in this. you two can solve this (or maybe you already did) im just noting my shock/surprise/amazment. wish you guys solved this issue in a different way, form a personal aspect it makes it harder for me to be friends with both of you if your arguing.
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