I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes)

This was so much fun! Some of them are very true, others are just hilarious or terrible!

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button (ONLY ONCE!!!) to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS - even if it is incredibly embarrassing.
4. Tag 15 friends who might enjoy doing the same as well as the person you got the note from.
5. Ready? GO GO GO!!

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY...

She's Gotta Be – Keith Urban (haha oh yeah!)


2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Supernatural – Flyleaf (haha too true)

3) WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GIRL/GUY?
Miss America – Styx (oh man, do I need to say anything?)

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Another Race – Eiffel 65 (from outer space!)

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
Buried Myself Alive – The Used (….)


6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Vampires Will Never Hurt You – My Chemical Romance (haha, me likey)

7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
The First Time We Ever Met – A Change Of Pace (saweeeeet!)

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Good Morning Baltimore – Nikki Blonsky (haha my life is a musical... HAIRSPRAY!)

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Gone Away – The Offspring (haha, my intelligence just went away...)

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FREIND?
The Funeral of Hearts – H.I.M. (that's terrible!)

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Another Hole In The Head – Nickelback (oh man, could it be more true!)

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Big, Blonde and Beautiful – Hairspray (wow, couldn't be more wrong! haha)

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Home Is Where The Heart Is – A Change Of Pace (I like it)

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Martian Girl – The Aquabats (hahahahaha that's awesome!)

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Destination Tokyo – Seve Vs Evan (haha oh wow that rocks)

16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Can't Repeat – The Offspring (I sure hope I don't repeat my wedding!)

17) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

2^nd Movement of the Odyssey – Incubus (it's from halo! Yes, that's right, the video game!)

18) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Second to None – Styles of Beyond (Feat. Mike Shenoda) (haha that's awesome, yet terribly mean!)

19) WHATS THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Echoplex – Nine Inch Nails (haha, i'll give you that)

20) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Kids Aren't Alright – Americana (I better go make them feel alright then huh? haha)

23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Suite Madame Blue – Styx (haha, not exactly a funny song)

24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
I'm Alive – Disturbed (not exactly a sad song, haha)

25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Kountry Gentleman – Family Force 5 (I don't know what that means, but I'll take it.)

26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Flat On The Floor – Nickelback (haha, I like it)

27) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Take Care – A Change Of Pace (sweet, that means people do!)

28) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Found Myself Today – A Change Of Pace (looks like I wouldn't change a thing!)

29) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
My Happy Ending – Avril Lavigne (oh if it wasn't so true)

30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) – The Used (good song)

The Latest in Depression

Why does this keep on happening. As soon as I start to be able to live, I lose it all. If this is god's way of telling me to come back to him, it's not going to work. Ever! My life is pretty much miserable. I'm back to square one, and this time I don't know how to get out. No job. In order to get a job, I need a phone for them to contact me at. In order for me to have a job I need a car to get there with. No girlfriend. In order for me to get a girlfriend, I need a phone to talk to her with. In order for me to get a girlfriend, I need a car to see her with. And in order for me to have a girlfriend I need a job to take her on dates. Bascally, I'm at a stand still, and I have no idea how to get out. Soon, I'll be the last one without a job. Therefore, yet again, the only one without rent. I owe Deena about a thousand dollars (I'm not exaggerating by the way, I owe her at least 950 dollars), and I have no idea how I'm supposed to pay her back. How am I supposed to satisfy everyone around me when I can't even satisfy myself?

I feel like all I can do now, is just leave. Get myself away from anyone I care about, so that I don't hurt them anymore. Go live in a box in california. Or on a rug in mexico. No rent, right? I can't handle this anymore.

Infected Mushroom... two words that create the techno band of amazingness!

Well, I know you all have been waiting for this. Now, I know you guys don't really want to hear about drugs and such so I'll make that part quick. My first play was to do some Extacy while I was there. That plan fell through because I couldn't find anyone that had any. So, Rob told me about this cold medicine, called Delsym, that really fucks you up. He also said that you can buy it from Wal-Mart. I jumped on the idea, and went and bought a 9 dollar bottle of said drug. From what Rob said, Delsym had DXM in it. This drug is similar to both Extacy and Acid. You get kinda horny, things are magnatized, like Extacy. But, also, it makes you feel like you're watching yourself in a third person view, and you halucinate a bit. This should be fun, I thought. So, in the car, before we got there, we smoked up some weed, and then when we got there, I drank the whole bottle. That's what they told me to do, so don't think I like overdosed or something. That's just how you take it. It didn't taste too bad. I was like the syrup for some grape soda or something. It took about a half an hour to completely hit. Before we went in, Rob looked at me and hissed, mouth wide open, his fake fangs shooting out like he was about to suck my blood. Although, I'm sure, you know what that looks like, it looked a lot creepier to me. It looked as though his mouth was opening wider than humaly possible, and his whole body was lunging to eat me!

So, we walked in. I got in first, and before Rob and Amber did, they had to go back to the car. Now, you can't leave, there is no re-entry, so that left me alone. That was insane. I'm standing there, for what felt like an eternity, getting scared out of my wits! At one point, two girls walked past with neon ribbons hanging from their skirts. I thought that they were crazy looking neon snakes about to jump out and eat someone! When they finally got back, they realized they needed something else from the car, so that left me waiting yet again. I sat down against the wall and waited. When they finally got back, I jumped to my feet, and followed them.

We walked around for a bit, getting familiar with the new atmosphere of a rave. It was very different. Concerts are dangerous. Very dangerous. People drinking, fighting, not caring about anyone around them. Raves, on the other hand, are very safe. Everyone loves everyone. PLUR! Plur is something that ravers believe in. It's an acronym for Peace, Love, Unity and Respect. Everyone is very chill. You can walk up to some random person, ask them their name, and chill with them for an hour or two, and it's like you've known each other for years!

So, Rob and Amber got in a fight. Who knew, right? They are doing so much better now. They got engagement rings! :-) Anyways, I decided i wasn't going to let them ruin my night, so I ditched them. I walked around, looking for people to meet. Amber had introduce Rob and I to a couple of her friends, so I looked for them. I also knew that Morgan and her friends, along with Banta and a few of his friends would be there, so I looked for them too. I found Amber's friends, still can't remember their names. Oh, by the way, when we met them, they saw the contacts that I was wearing and they thought that I was rolling so hard I was going to die. It looked like my eyes were so dialated, I should've been dead... Haha! I was also wearing some really comfortable pants with the shirt that I created. It was a white shirt that I had splattered with neon paint and put a glow in the dark Mushroom on the front. The back had I M, standing for Infected Mushroom, with a mushroom inbetween it.

I chilled with them for a bit, and as soon as they walked away, a girl walked up to me and introduced herself. Her name was Anisa, she was very short, 16 years old, ahd shoulder-length brown hair, and was in a very hot Rave outfit. I introduced myself, told her that I was alone at the moment and that it was my first rave. "We're gonna make it a good one!" She said. She had been to 4 raves, this was her fifth. I followed her to another spot in the Salt Air and she introduced me to her friends. "... And this is my Mom..." What? Huh? Are you serious? It took me off guard. I couldn't believe her mom was there with her. Better yet, she was rolling on Extacy! What the hell? That was very strange. She was an awesome person though. Fun to hang with. So I chilled with them for most of the night. We went upstairs and I gave her a massage. Then we went outside, and layed down on the wet muddy grass. Made-out a few times and just enjoyed the night. When Infected mushroom came on, we went inside. Anisa was all over every guy there, but it didn't bother me at all. I barely knew her!

At one point in time, this girl comes up to me. She's wearing kinda big, nerdy neon glasses, and has two crazy awesome lights in her hands! She gave me a great light show, so in return, I made-out with her a few times... Haha. I know, I'm a manwhore.... Still don't remember her name.... Started with an S... Stella I think... haha!

I bumped into Rob and Amber throughout the night, never together though... Rob got tired, so he went out to the car and waited for us about an hour before it was over. The rest of the night, I chilled with Amber. We enjoyed the last hour of the concert. Infected Mushroom were fantastic live. They really involved the audience. Oh, by the way, they didn't come on till about 1 in the morning. They do that on purpose, because, although drugs are illegal, the know that everyone is on something, so they give time for the drugs to really kick in, and then they come on. At about 4 O'clock they were done, so Amber and I ran out to the car to beat the traffic. Rob drove home, since I was still fucked up... haha. Rob was a fantastic driver, he didn't do anything wrong. We stopped at a gas station, got some water, and then came home. They dropped me off, and Rob and Amber went to Amber's house.

Anyways, it was the best concert I have ever been to. Everyone was so chill and just plain awesome! Well, I hope I didn't annoy you with my drug taking. If you read through the entire thing, thanx for reading.. Haha! Cya!

Jorden

P.S. Isn't it about time I write blog? LOL

Upcoming!

Well, I don't have time to do it now, but sooner or later, I'm going to post a blog all about the Infected Mushroom night! It will be long. haha!

Pieces

Verse 1:
She never let him go.
Now she's left in pieces, again.
And I'll be there for her.
I'll put her, back together now.

I won't give up.
No matter how tough.
I'll be there for her.

Chorus:
I will lift her up.
I will be her land
On soggy waters,
Rain on my shoulder,
I'll be there for her.

Verse 2:
I've found the edges.
I've got the frame
Of the picture that
Was once her heart
I've found Cupid's arrow.

Chorus

Now she stands (On her own)
I lifted her up (On my own)
Now she stands (On her own)
And she turns to me and smiles.

Chorus
Chorus

Comments Please!!!!

I want to type, but don't know what.... HA!

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm I had the sudden urge to write a new blog, but had no idea what to write about........




I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!! haha yeah, i'm working for Mr. Network, the same place Sam works at. It'll be nice, this way I won't have to steal any cars to go to work. I'm glad that I won't have to worry about rent anymore.... What a lift! Anyways, the first episode of The Office is on in the other room. It's Hilarious! I love the Office. One of the best comedys! For all those who think it is stupid, it's probably because you've only seen one or two episodes. The comedy of the show is almost completely characteristic. You have to know the characters in order to laugh at the joke. So watch it a few more times, and I guarentee you will be laughing histarically when you do!

That was a random side tangent on The Office.... I told you I had nothing to write about...

haha............ ummmmmm

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well, i don't know what to write about...... so i'll talk to you later.......... If you're reading this, step one of my evil plot to take over the cyber world is complete................. I just wasted 5 minutes of your time.... BWAHAHAHAHA BWAHAHAHAH!

The door is open. The light is on. All I need to do is get up.

Hmm... Life is quite the interesting subject. Talk to some, and they will say that life is a waste. Life is not worth living, and that you're better off elsewhere. Heaven or Hell. Talk to others, and they will tell you that life is worth it. You're better off here, learning, growing, living. I've realized this more this past week than any other time in my life. The time we have on this earth is precious. Every little memory; every little pasttime; every little heartbreak is another step to growth. The good. The bad. The happy. The sad. Every emotion, every thought, every feeling is life itself. To make it good, all you have to do is think that all is well.

I know. Quite the change from my last blog, eh? :P Well, I have had a lot on my mind, and I have decided, that it's not worth wasting my time worrying. Worrying about the future, worrying about love or hate. But what it is worth, is learning. My past week has been a rollercoaster of every emotion and trial that's really possible in my situation.

The other night, I walked to the door, grabbed the ripstick and decided to be alone for a while. Cameron noticed I was leaving and asked if he could tag along. "NO!!!!" I thought to myself, but said, "Sure..." When we got out, I spilled my thoughts. I told him how I was feeling. Told him that I was ready to give up. Then he said one of many things that I will never forget. "Every trial your going through, you can handle. Nothing is thrown at you that you can't." I thought to myself, "Yeah, I can handle this. I'm tough. I'm not weak. I'm not going to give in to whatever power is trying to bring me down. I can step up and do this." Cameron has such a way of being profound sometimes. I do miss walking out with him to have a smoke. A lot was said on our small 5 minute breaks. Thanx Cam.

I don't know what's going to happen to me within the next year, let alone the next month. All I know is that I can handle it, and I can learn from it. Morgan is an amazing girl. I can't explain to anyone what happened to me the very first time I saw her. On my side, it was love at first sight. But she's not ready, and I don't know if she ever will be. For me at least. I do know that because I met her, I have grown. I have learned. I have learned patience, love, compassion, friendship, and all of this happened in one week. One week of my small existence. The best, and worst week of my life. She is broken. Broken into many pieces. I've noticed that a lot of the girls that I have liked, started out broken, I've mended them, and then they move on. Move on to bigger and better things. I just hope that one day, one of them won't want to leave, and I'll stay with them forever.

As for my roommates, I couldn't ask for better. Sam pulled me aside, and told me that he didn't feel how I thought he felt about me. Told me that he was there for me, and if there was anything I needed, he would help me out. This caught me off guard so bad. I don't know if he noticed, but I was shocked. I have no idea why. I should have known this. They are amazing in every way. I love the many late night talks I have with Deena (mostly about how stupid guys are, but hey, it helps me not be stupid! jk). She is one of the greatest women in my life.

NESSA!!!!!!!! I can't even start! I don't know where to start. You love me no matter what I do. But I will tell you this, your guilt stares sure work! Haha! I couldn't ask for a better fake sis! I can tell you this much. We did meet for a reason. Now, what that reason is, I couldn't tell you. But you have done so much for me, and I don't know how I'll even prepare to begin to pay you back. Love ya, and always will.

Alyse. You rock! I've missed seeing you so much. You helped me realize who I am. You gave me confidence. I love reading your many blogs. It's nice to stay updated when I don't see you as much anymore. I wish I had a car! :-P

Cosette. I don't even know if you read my blogs, but you are one awesome girl. Your latest blog sure helped me out, and I am indebted to you for it. Thank you for being support when you didn't even know it! Tee hee! :->

And if there is anyone else I forgot, I'm sorry. I'm very tired. I just took my sleeping pill and it sure has kicked in. I can barely still sit here and type, so I'll be off. Thank you to all for giving me a better lookout on life and a stronger self-confidence. Goodnight

Jay